This year has been full of uncertainty and change. And the wheels are still turning. Things are still shifting. We’re still going through the transition.
I hope this blog post can act as a reminder and a guidance to help you build your mental strength whether you still feel lost in this transition or if you’ve managed to build a routine and find your way around it.
Are you tired? Me too.
Sometimes I just want to give up.
Then I have to remind myself how many obstacles I’ve pushed myself through and all that I have now is a result of not giving up.
Today I want to talk about hope. And how important it is to have hope. But more importantly, how our hope won’t likely become a reality unless we believe that our hope will come true.
But with so much fear and insecurity, how can we convince ourselves that we are worthy of reserving what we desire? How can we make ourselves believe that what we want can happen and it will happen? Because everything, everything that happens to us is simply a reflection of our beliefs. If we don’t believe we deserve something, subconsciously we...
We all talk about being the best we can be, but what if being our best means being able to manage our worst selves? I believe that we all have our darkness. Personality traits are like yin and yang. Every strength comes with a weakness. The intensity of your strength comes at a cost of the intensity of your weakness. Unless all of your traits are neutral, then you can’t run away from this fact of the human psyche.
If you say you don’t have any darkness within you, it’s probably because of one of the following reasons:
Running away from our darkness or being oblivious to it is like running away from the truth of life. It is hard to be vulnerable. It is hard to face our weakness. But unless we learn to face it, accept it, and learn to manage it, we cannot become whole. If you live life only facing your light, you will keep feeling like you’re running the show because you’re dismissing another important part of you. When you learn to embrace your whole self, you will be filled with self-love. And it’s a beautiful feeling to live in a constant state of flow.
Do you find that you have many relationship anxieties? Or do you find it hard to open up and let someone in? Part of the reasons is you still have some abandonment issues.
And you can never get rid of your abandonment issues until you heal that wound with your parents around acceptance.
When you can make peace with self-acceptance issues with your parents (whether to heal OR to forgive & move on), that’s when you can feel truly secure within yourself; that’s when you can find true love - the kind of love that truly accepts you for who you are.
"How and when did this thought pattern get developed?"
"How did this idea plant the seed in our head?’
The beginning of a transformation starts with recognizing that we need to change. Now let’s dive deep into this. Get your pen and paper ready!
Whether you’re in a relationship, single, or in a complicated situation, I think we can all agree that working on our relationship is really working on ourselves.
There’s no other place as intimately challenging as being in a relationship. A relationship is where can heal all of our intimacy, commitment, and abandonment wounds and fears - if we allow ourselves to confront our deepest fears and greatest vulnerabilities. Many of us choose to run. But there comes a point when we’re mature enough to realize that running away doesn’t make anything better. Running away might seem like the right thing to do in the moment, but it doesn’t make us feel fulfilled. We still feel hollow because we run away from our deepest need - our need to be loved.
One thing I’ve learned up to this point in life is that the mind has a memory. And it’s damn smart; it “subconsciously” recognizes patterns.
Once the pattern become a habit, it’s hard for you to stop doing it. It requires extra mental strength to break the habit.
“Starting from a small act, but if you do it repeatedly, one day it will become big."
Why is it so hard to let ourselves ‘be loved’ especially during the times we need to feel loved the most - when we feel unlovable; when we feel worthless; when we feel like an absolute failure.
Why is it so hard to let ourselves be loved unconditionally?
Mother’s Day (in many parts of the world) is exactly 5 days from today. I want to share with you a personal story.
I came back to Thailand, my home country, to get a new visa. Due to the pandemic, I am stuck here until further notice. My initial reaction to the lockdown and the closing of borders was probably like many other people’s. I wished I could continue traveling. I wished I was quarantined with a romantic partner. I wished I could still go out to eat and hit the gym. I initially hated the idea of being stuck at home at my mom’s because I kept reminding myself of past childhood memories where I felt like I was being kept in a cage when I wanted to be a free bird who could be her most authentic self without feeling judged.
Now it’s been over 5 weeks since I moved back to my mom’s. During the first 4 weeks, I kept feeling triggered. I kept feeling annoyed with her little complaints. It reminded me why I didn’t want to live at home and why I wanted to move away so badly.
But now I feel different.
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